♣ The name's Zanny... which means adventurous, crazy...
♣ Still considering what permanent job I want for the rest of my life.
♣ Loves: Wolves, dogs, MY cello, looking at clouds, My family and... you know who you are.
♣ Hates: Backstabbers? people who talk without using their brains first? you get the point.
♣ Dreams of: Having a 9-5 job that pays well. Have my own house where i can provide a living heaven for my dogs. Live a peaceful life with those i hold dear to. Have a family. Die peacefully.
♣ I'm just an ordinary girl, living in a extraordinary world. Longing for time to myself where i can just sit down with my dogs by my side, sipping tea and looking at the clouds drift by.
♣ I hate pain and am really sensitive to pain. Hates people randomly slapping me, I don't care whether it's a light pat or a tight slap.
♣ I'm very anti social and hates the effort of reconnecting with people. It doesn't mean I don't care or I've forgotten them though... Just call me and i WILL be there for you.
♣ It's just that, It hurts to know that there's a distance and we won't be as close as we used to. Sigh, I really wish college could last forever. I had my closest high school friends as my housemates and i found the best friends i could only dream of. And i found you.
♣ I think too much. I wake up from my dreams crying sometimes. Sometimes because of a friend. Might be my family or even you. I cry and get depressed when I'm drunk. I'm just weird. sorry.
♣♣ Like an instrument for a song
- Like the sun for tomorrow's dawn
- Every moment of time's just an answer to find
- What you're here for, what you breathe for
- What you wake for, What you bleed for.
⇨Is multiple-personality disorder a good idea... Right now, I really think it is.
Ok, so compared to my brother's I'm a total failure. I suck in studying. I suck in sports. I suck in being an "adult". I suck in making you proud of me. I never keep up with stuff going on in the business world. I totally screwed up my college life and I've degraded to be a beggar. But that doesn't mean that I have to CHANGE my whole personality just to suit your taste right? So what If I can't score straight A's? So what if I can't run like an athlete? So what If I never hang around in the dining room talking bout businesses and shares? Like seriously. What the hell am I supposed to do to even make you happy!? I once lived a life just to make you happy. My whole life was about making you two proud. I was at the peak of the highlight times of my life. I was once top in class. I was once a president(although a failure one but still). I was once a person with an ambition. And yet, trying to achieve that ambition and aiming for those places i knew i would never reach. Even just planning everything out to convince you was a hassle to me. I couldn't go to the places i really wanted to go(at least at that time). I wanted to travel! I wanted to get my cello diploma. I wanted to just do whatever i could to help animals. And I knew that you would never allow that. "Travelling alone for a girl is too dangerous, you're not adventurous anyway..." "Don't waste your time on your cello, focus more on your studies..." "Aiya... you won't even get through the 1st hour. What for?" And hence, I hide my dreams. I become a clown in the house to hopefully dissolve any tension moments, cracking up jokes and trying to please everyone. And all you could give me is on phrase "Don't act like such a fool." yea... maybe i am but just a fool.
