♣ The name's Zanny... which means adventurous, crazy...
♣ Still considering what permanent job I want for the rest of my life.
♣ Loves: Wolves, dogs, MY cello, looking at clouds, My family and... you know who you are.
♣ Hates: Backstabbers? people who talk without using their brains first? you get the point.
♣ Dreams of: Having a 9-5 job that pays well. Have my own house where i can provide a living heaven for my dogs. Live a peaceful life with those i hold dear to. Have a family. Die peacefully.
♣ I'm just an ordinary girl, living in a extraordinary world. Longing for time to myself where i can just sit down with my dogs by my side, sipping tea and looking at the clouds drift by.
♣ I hate pain and am really sensitive to pain. Hates people randomly slapping me, I don't care whether it's a light pat or a tight slap.
♣ I'm very anti social and hates the effort of reconnecting with people. It doesn't mean I don't care or I've forgotten them though... Just call me and i WILL be there for you.
♣ It's just that, It hurts to know that there's a distance and we won't be as close as we used to. Sigh, I really wish college could last forever. I had my closest high school friends as my housemates and i found the best friends i could only dream of. And i found you.
♣ I think too much. I wake up from my dreams crying sometimes. Sometimes because of a friend. Might be my family or even you. I cry and get depressed when I'm drunk. I'm just weird. sorry.
♣♣ Like an instrument for a song
- Like the sun for tomorrow's dawn
- Every moment of time's just an answer to find
- What you're here for, what you breathe for
- What you wake for, What you bleed for.
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Marriage is commonly a meal wherein the soup is better than the desert.
AUSTIN O'MALLEY, Keystones of Thought
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I was reading xiaxue's blog. And I came upon her post on cheating.
Then, upon this short story on facebook.
http://www.facebook.com/#!/note.php?note_id=407640990562&id=743662869
Then, it hit me, "hey! This has happened to my parents before"? Now, I'm sure that everybody's parents have once or are at the moment "sounded for divorce" at some point? Then I was thinking. Geez, If you guys are going to get divorced, why did you guys get married in the first place?
This kept me wondering. What would I do if I were in that situation.
What would I do if I fell for someone else after my flame for my spouse had died of? (in the future!) What would happen? To me, marriage is all about keeping that connection between 2 people. As the short story proved, intimacy throughout the relationship is in fact crucial.If an understanding between the 2 people are not maintained, for sure the marriage will not last long.
But then, even if you lose touch of that flame or whatever that is, doesn't the guilt of cheating your spouse, that you know is faithfully waiting for you at home, who have sacrificed their freedom for you, who have constantly stood by you, puts a toll on your passion to your new "flame"? Won't you feel guilty to having to force your children to bear the pain of a broken family, just for your own happiness? Isn't that an irresponsible act?
Hmm... suddenly, I've just lost interest in typing, there's just so many Won'ts and Buts etc.etc. Hopefully nobody else near me will need to go through the pain of divorce. =(