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♣ The name's Zanny... which means adventurous, crazy... ♣ Still considering what permanent job I want for the rest of my life. ♣ Loves: Wolves, dogs, MY cello, looking at clouds, My family and... you know who you are. ♣ Hates: Backstabbers? people who talk without using their brains first? you get the point. ♣ Dreams of: Having a 9-5 job that pays well. Have my own house where i can provide a living heaven for my dogs. Live a peaceful life with those i hold dear to. Have a family. Die peacefully. ♣ I'm just an ordinary girl, living in a extraordinary world. Longing for time to myself where i can just sit down with my dogs by my side, sipping tea and looking at the clouds drift by. ♣ I hate pain and am really sensitive to pain. Hates people randomly slapping me, I don't care whether it's a light pat or a tight slap. ♣ I'm very anti social and hates the effort of reconnecting with people. It doesn't mean I don't care or I've forgotten them though... Just call me and i WILL be there for you. ♣ It's just that, It hurts to know that there's a distance and we won't be as close as we used to. Sigh, I really wish college could last forever. I had my closest high school friends as my housemates and i found the best friends i could only dream of. And i found you. ♣ I think too much. I wake up from my dreams crying sometimes. Sometimes because of a friend. Might be my family or even you. I cry and get depressed when I'm drunk. I'm just weird. sorry. ♣♣ Like an instrument for a song - Like the sun for tomorrow's dawn - Every moment of time's just an answer to find - What you're here for, what you breathe for - What you wake for, What you bleed for. Tagboard
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Thursday, April 8, 2010
, 7:57:00 AM
⇨ 有时候,明知道没路可了,却还是走下去,时因为习惯。 *** *** *** *** *** I'm really really disappointed. I never wanted it to be this way... I don't even know how it ended up like this. Maybe it was my fault. But I don't even know where I screwed up? or when? I'm really hurt this time... every time I try to make things right... It only makes things worse... What am I supposed to do??? everyday... I'm stuck. I don't know which step to take. I know I'm alone on this. Even If I say anything. It'll all be my fault. I'm just an annoying pet that you can just abandon when you feel like it. I know. you probably don't know what you mean to me... and you'd probably not see this... I seriously don't know what to say to you. Every time I try to put my feelings into words... you just stunt me. And I'll be left gawping there... I'm seriously suffocating here... I can't even cry out my pain. I don't know weather I can take this anymore... I'm a water balloon that's going to burst anytime. anywhere. But I can't. I've been holding myself together for so long. I'm tired. I want to rest. It's always me taking the blows. I'd bet you don't even give a damn to what I feel. My pain amuses you. and your ignorance is the main cause. hah! I'm sure you never knew that. |